[ 'for reasons unknown' ]

i should feel guilty – i never remember this blog. Right now, i just did, 'cause MrB. singed-in on my brother's msn.

is pathetic, i update my lj with bullshit about fucking life every day and to this poor thingy? nothing.

although there's no much to say – i'm still wondering when did guys became so fucking boring and i'm still a way to happy for 30 seconds to mars coming to argentina. – oh, my life is so goddamn exciting ¬¬.

ah – my godfather got me a dove from italy. how fucking awesome is that? he made my day okay today (too many ‘y’ ¬¬).

i'll be going now. maybe i remember this more often – or, you know, no.

xoxo
me.

[ 'and i've been doing just fine' ]

Q: Am i that motherfucking domed in the fucking love department?
A: Well, yes.

you know, when they say that i'm never going to get a boy if i don't try to; they should see that every time i do try, everything goes to fucking hell.

Fuck, what's the hard part of 'hey, i like you, wanna go out someday?'

Guhs, i feel frustrated and i normally don't get like that over this; but this time i had to get it out - and i wasn't gonna do it somewhere else, so here it is.

i don't want a fucking boyfriend, i don't want a relationship - i just want a boy to hang out and make out.

that's it, i'm turning to lau's friends, or my brother's. ¬¬

i feel like i'm 12 all over again. shoot me, please?

'am I too dirty? am i too flirty?'

With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness

awake.unafraid@hotmail.com - feel like killing loneliness with me?

(fuking insomnia is back)

everyone is heavy-breathing in their sleeps - i wish i was 'em.

"You fall in love of everyone," she told me, and it took me a whole day to realize how right she was.

it's true because i do fall in love of small glances, of shy smiles, of soft voices, of dark eyes and shinny looks – also of jokes in the right moment, of good manners in the table, of gentlemanly and dorky-ness. i just do it, i can't help it.

"but your falling in love lasts as much as an ice-cube over fire." She added, after a second. and that was something i understood right away.

because i fall in love of little things – but i can't never fall in love with the person itself. mostly because i believe that love-of-being-in-love just goes okay or movies and fanfictions.

[ 'don't you wanna come with me?' ]

i feel submissive. and that scares me - worries me. it's like after everything i said i don't want to take control for a while. i want somenthing else.

i want - i need - someone else to take control for a bit.

even if it's only on me. even if it's sounds sick. even if it's in a small action - i just need -

Submissiveness is not the same as stupidity.
i need to be like that, at least once. i really do.

i dunno why, i just do i need it - and want it.

maia

ps. you should ignore that pals, i'm not making much sense right now.

*wordless, but peaceful*

en mi casa no hay nada prohibido, pero no vayas a enamorarte


.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.think happy thoughts.

[ 'i wanna stand up, i wanna let go' ]

links ahoy!

this is me
and my life:


*in words:
this makes me proud, is my work
this makes me happy
this worries me and I still need it
this is who i look up to
this keeps me sane and alive
this is my everything
this is my forever
this is my company

*in pics:<
they make me feel okay
they make me understand
they make me scream
they are more than what I can say
they are back
they keep me awake
they lullaby me to sleep
[and there are so many more that I can never finish this list]

*x-posted to my LJ*

ladyrcoketdale - maia - or just me